People tend to confuse leaders and the Word. It’s the Word that is driving its way into your most inner parts. The parts you are trying to keep hidden, trying to keep protected, trying to bury down, etc. It may seem as if the leaders are the ones causing the driving but they are simply just presenting what is actually doing all the work! Your fight isn’t with them, it’s with the working of the WORD!
Hebrews 4:2 NASB 20
For the word of God is living and active, and sharper than any two-edged sword, even penetrating as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.